i would lay motionless for days

OOOHHHH YEEAAAHHHH

2006-03-04T20:35:06Z

of course i'm getting laid this week.

hi!

chloroform_love @ 2005-10-10T02:08:00

2005-10-10T09:12:59Z

Your Underground 80's Cult Band by Caleb VB
Username
You form the band with:	lynch_mob
Your sound is influenced by:	PIL, Gary Numan, Lene Lovich
Your mode of dress/fashion claim-to-fame:	An Elvis-like haircut and a British military uniform.
The name of your group is:	Land's End
Your downfall/decline of popularity is caused by:	"Creative differences" (you were shagging the singer's girlfriend).
Your instrument of choice:

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dear lynch mob-
come to ca so i can have sex with your girlfriend. or you. miss ya.

My parrot is eating dinner with me

2005-09-13T00:38:05Z

I love MySpace and I thank God for my ability to spell and use proper syntax!

updizzate

2005-04-12T07:01:13Z

i have not updated my livejournal in like four months. kind of forgot about it.

i
-live in campbell
-work at petsmart
-smoke hydro like a motherfucker
-have a radical cat, spliff
-have two chinchillas and a litter on the way
-am eating like a queen
-am laying in xpy's nice, warm bed
-love to love my baby, seven months today.

what a wonderful life. i am so lucky to have found this great person who was willing to take me in as a stray and love me regardless of my shortcomings [and i have a considerable amount]. thank you, peanut.

otherwise, i love marshmallows! and baby birds! and updating livejournal in bra and rolled-up boxers!
also, i have a myspace, look me up and love me forever. my name is Stephy Ska, of course.

maybe i will pay more attention to my livejournal, but probably not, since i also have a BLOG on myspace.

chloroform_love @ 2004-12-09T09:50:00

2004-12-09T17:59:11Z

here is your update:
i have spent the better part of the last hour vomiting uncontrollably. it's so early in the morning; nine, i think. i'm not done by far.

this is indeed some bullshit.
but i'm going to brush my teeth for the seventh time, go back to bed, and try to make amends.
all while suppressing an angry wave of bile.

happy thursday.

chloroform_love @ 2004-12-06T21:41:00

2004-12-07T05:42:26Z

welcome to campbell, stephy.

chloroform_love @ 2004-11-27T15:33:00

2004-11-28T03:19:16Z

pix, you don't need words. i know what you are saying, but do you really need to say it any more?

new things as follows:
-izzah is a hottie whom i had a lot of fun with, even though there was nothing to do in rancho buttfuck. she dresses and acts just like me, but in a good way. we'll have better times in michigan without that cuntwad, okay? also, the filthy mexico we were in is not an accurate representation of the rest of california. usually.
-got a new black and white kitten about a month ago. he is outgoing and likes to sleep on my face. his name is spliff because he is "half and half".
-had the best thanksgiving ever. SO MUCH FOOD!! xpy successfully deep fried a large turkey and, coupled with gravy, it kept me grinning through the whole meal. the torrent of vodka helped, too. xpy and i went to see my mom later in the evening. i'm so glad my family likes him. stuffed-full-'o-turkey sex was hella sweet.
-should be getting a job soon. women's express, or petsmart? either way, i'm going to love eating again.
-went out last night with agata and andrew to see alexander. rosario dawson is hot.
-beefcake! beefcaaaaake!!!
-just now, i went to smell a bottle of dior perfume and accidentally sprayed a full blast directly to the center of my face. the smell is making me want to throw up, and i have no way to escape it. shouldn't expensive things smell good?
-i can't wait to get our christmas tree!

my livejournal posts always seem to degenerate into whatever i pull out of my ass, instead of something you'd like to read. i'm sorry.
and now, i have laundry to do and kittens to love. where are my cigarettes?

chloroform_love @ 2004-09-22T16:46:00

2004-09-23T00:37:22Z

i get bored.

1. What’s color of your bedroom walls?
White
2. What’s in the top drawer of you dresser?
i dont have one!
3. Do you have a rug or hardwood floor?
hardwood <3
4. What kind of pictures are on the walls?
rancid, pirate flag, anime, kurt cobain
5. Is your computer in the bedroom?
brady's computer is in our bedroom. mine, drews, and xpys are scattered throughout the apartment.
6. Did you make your bed today?
no, we never really do. only on weekends, i think. it's more of a nest, anyway.
7. Are their clothes all over the place?
unfortunately, there's a nice pile of shit on the floor, including clothes. it's going to be cleaned though, i promise.
8. What color are you sheets?
blankets are all different colors
9. When you walk in the bedroom what’s the first thing you smell?
depends. cigarettes, pot, laundry, perfume. the room kind of has a "smell" to it when there isn't anything specific, you know?
10. Do you have a T.V. in your room?
yes
11. Are their any full length mirrors in plain view?
nope
12. What’s on the table next to the bed?
there isn't one, but on x's dresser there is everything imaginable.
13. What’s in the drawer of the table next to the bed?
...?
14. What covers the window’s curtains or mini blinds?
there are only windows on the door, and they're covered in paper.
15. What’s piled up under your bed?
there is no 'under the bed', thank god.
16. Is your bed brass or wood framed?
dude, straight up nah
17. Are the lights bright or dim in the room?
fuck bright light. keep it cave-like and i'm happy.
18. Do you use a little plug in night light?
only jesus in the bathroom. but he's currently out of commission.
19. Do you have Buzz Lightyear pillowcases?
fuck no
20. Do you drink or smoke in your bedroom?
we drink and smoke where we please, so yes.

NUMBER OF...:
1: piercing? not counting the ones i've taken out, 8
2: tattoos? 3
3: height? 5'4"
4: shoe size? 8.5, 9
5: hair color? naturally brown, now kind of strawberry-brown
6: siblings? 1 biological, 2 step

FAVORITE...
1: food? cheeseburgers, pasta, shrimp [!!!!!!], steak
2: thing to do? sex, sleep, eat, tetris
3: thing to talk about? the incomprehensible
4: sports? hockey, mx/street racing
5: drinks? cosmo, dr. pepper, pine-orange-banana juice
6: clothes? jeans and a hoodie, cute skirt and stilletos
7: movies? see the myspace profile. fuck typing that shit out again.
8: holiday? halloween! christmas.

HAVE YOU...
1: ever cried over a girl? bitches!
2: ever cried over a boy? never again
3: ever lied to someone? of course
4: ever been in a fist fight? yes indeedy, it was hot
5: ever been arrested? no!!!

NUMBER...
1: of times I have been in love? once fo real
2: of times I have had my heart broken? 1
3: of hearts I have broken? *cough* i'm sorry?
4: of girls I have kissed? i can probably count them on two hands
5: of boys I have kissed? no idea
6: of girls I've slept with? urk, two? three?
7: of boys I've slept with? urk.
8: of drugs taken illegally? lets just name the ones i havent done: acid, heroin, opium.
9: of friends I would classify as true, could trust with my life with type friend? give me another two years and i'll tell you
10: of people I consider my enemies? 0
11: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? umm, i was on tv once.
12: of scars on my body? lots
13: of things in my past that I regret? no regrets, only learning experiences. i have a lot of those.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...:
1: pretty? i'd do me
2: funny? when i'm not flipping out
3: hot? i'd do me
4: friendly? i hate women.
5: amusing? depends what amuses you
6: ugly? nah
7: caring? motherly
8: sweet? motherly
9: dorky? not as dorky as you.

DESCRIBE YOUR..
1: Wallet? grey corduroy, NO CHANGE POCKET. VERY ANNOYING.
2: Hairbrush? circular; black with red tips
4: Jewelry worn daily? random assortments of bracelets when i feel like it
5: pillow cover? white on the down one, the other one's FFA, and then there's Nut Frog.
6: Blanket? too many to list
7: Sunglasses? Bitch Aviators. purple lenses, silver frames
8: Underwear? currently black booty shorts that lace up on the left with hot pink ribbon :-0
9: CD in stereo right now? what stereo? i'm at work. i wish i was listening to D-12, though
10: Tattoos? m-l/back - "to thine own self be true" ; left hip - kanji for "love" ; right hip - kanji for "lust"
11: Piercings? tongue (second time around), two in each ear, navel, nipples. i just took out my lip ring- it's been pierced twice.
12: What you are wearing now? disturbingly clean work clothes- dickies and a red polo
13: In my mouth? a huge, black cock
14: In my head? wistful i guess
15: Wishing? for a twinkie and for a magical genie to clean my room
16: After this? go home, coffee with kimi, clean the fuck out of the bedroom
17: Person you wish you could see right now? elton john naked
18: Is next to you right now? I AM BY MY LONESOME
19: Your Mood? impatient
20: The last thing you ate? snickers
21. Are deathly afraid of? torture

DO YOU?
1: like candles? passionately
2: like the taste of blood? somewhat. it's a very 'base' taste...
3: believe in love? with all of my cynical heart
4: believe in soul mates? no
5: believe in Heaven? no
6: believe in God? agnostic.

RANDOM QUESTIONS
1: What do you want done with your body when you die? i want to be cremated and put somewhere special.
2: if you could have any animal for a pet, what would you have? lemur, marmoset.
3: What color are the walls in your room? white
4: Can you eat with chopsticks? i was just forced to learn- we had no clean silverware for weeks. it's all about jacking panda express for all the chopsticks they have in the fucking store.
5: What's your favorite coin? quarter? it means laundry.
6: What are some of your favorite candies? not really a candy fan... i'd say hot tamales.
7: What's something that you wish people would understand? NOTHING MATTERS.
8: What's something you wish you could understand better? your mother... that bitch throws me off.
9: What is something that you really wish was still around? my old dog amy

LAST THING/PERSON WHO....:
1: Slept in your bed? me & x
2: Saw you cry? x
3: Made you cry? my father
4: Spent the night at your house? like, as a guest? chynelle, probably
5: You shared a drink with? my boss has been sipping from my dr. pepper all day
6: You went to the movies with? ?
7: You went to the mall with? ?
8: Yelled at you? my father

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. ska
2. honky
3. hammie

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. outlook
2. hair
3. empathy

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF
1. skin
2. history
3. ?

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. chinese, THAT SHIT IS INSANE
2. physics
3. paris hilton

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. bad grammar
2. bad spelling
3. camel toe

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. torture
2. spiders
3. social situations

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. toothpaste
2. deodorant
3. kisses

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
1. ini kamoze- hot stepper
2. nickatina- killer whale
3. matthew wilder- break my stride

THREE people/or sets of PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. x
2. drew
3. brady

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. deal
2. not smoke pot
3. ...deal.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. tetris
2. lovin'
3. hookah

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. a weave
2. my man
3. a frostee

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. nursing, esp. obstetrics/gynecology
2. bum in europe
3. social worker [will kill self quicker]

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION - right now:
1. disneyland!
2. iceland
3. bjork's house

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. go to italy
2. make so much money i can wipe my ass with it
3. marry a good man

1. Ever dated someone younger than you?
my boyfriends have been, for the most part, younger than i am

2.Someone older?
yes, thats why i date the younger ones

3.Ever been drunk?
MAYBE I AM RIGHT NOW.

4.Do you smoke?
um, yes. everything.

5.Been in love?
actually, now that i think about it, no.

6.Loved someone whom you knew you couldn't have?
nope!

7.Gotten in a car accident?
a few. nothing too serious.

8.Had your heart broken?
sort of

10.Been cheated on?
psh whatever. do internet girlfriends count?

11.Last time you cried?
ugh shut up

12.Last time you laughed?
at kimi like, half an hour ago

13.What age do you see yourself getting married at?
depends on when i find the right person. or 23.

14.Describe your dream wedding.
nothing elaborate. BOMB ASS FOOD.

15.Do you sleep with a stuffed animal with you?
sonic. does chrispy count?

17.Do you eat chicken with fingers or with a fork?
truthfully, i prefer to use my fingers to eat most things. [haha instead of 'most', i typed 'moist'. is there such a thing as a freudian-typing-slip?]

18.Would you rather give or receive?
both at the same time, baby. actually i like giving.

19.Where and how many homes have you lived in?
camden avenue, thousand oaks drive, currently on tenth street REPPIN DOWNTOWN

20.Do you play any musical instruments?
i can play mary had a little lamb on piano. and like, beethovens 5th but thats gay

21.One or two pillows?
as many as possible

22.Do you get along with your parents?
depends if they're being bitches. my father? no.

23.Do you drive?
and how!

24.Whats your favorite colors?
pink, hot pink, baby pink, black, red

25.Do you work?
ALLADATIME

26.What are your favorite dishes?
hahahah delicious dish

27.Who was your first crush?
shaun de la fuente, third through eighth grade. man, that guy never fucking liked me.

28.Are you the romantic type?
..yea

29.Are you in love right now?
all you ever need is to be nice and friendly

30.Are you happy?
insanely.

31.What are you going to do after this?
eat dinner with xpy and his momma! but i just ate, so i dont know how thats gonna work. x, i like your mom.

32. What is your PORN NAME? (Middle name and current street name)
lynn ten. that is not hot.

33. last movie you watched?
wicked city? tentacle porn? what?

sorry about that.

i updated my answers, pat.

chloroform_love @ 2004-09-22T16:23:00

2004-09-22T23:49:52Z

i count my blessings every single morning, in case you thought me ungrateful.

dependency is something new and unfamiliar; please give me time.

it is nice to be able to dictate when, where, and under what emotional circumstances i see my parents. as of late, it has been more the rule than the exception that we see each other under a raincloud of stress and tension and anger... "as of late" = the last two years, almost.

fuck tha police.

i just saw a gigantic bob marley head, mouth agape, out my boss's double-sided-mirror thing. it really threw me off until i noticed it was just the back of a very large man's shirt.

kimi wants to go to coffee tonight, but i have a whole room to clean!! god, i am a worker bee.

commence winter... my heart is in it.

chloroform_love @ 2004-08-12T19:53:00

2004-08-13T03:01:56Z

listening to 311 and getting ready for an 830 dinner with drew.
polka dot skirt :-)
sitting here on the laptop. where is my chrispy?

I CANT WAIT TO GO TO MASSACHUSETTS. i'm going to die when i see izzah.

hey, i just found my corona lighter on the table.

theres a rave somewhere in the east bay this weekend, and i'll be attending. will you?

...smoke weed every day.

chloroform_love @ 2004-08-10T16:25:00

2004-08-10T23:38:19Z

THE WORLD IS MY ASHTRAY.

a long time comin!

2004-06-19T00:32:55Z

oh my god i am sorry i have not been updating... my computer got the sasser worm and i can't get online anywhere but work, which is a rare thing indeed.

i'm sorry, but i love not going to school.

and i'm not moving after all! lots of people still ask "when are you going??" and seem pleasantly surprised when i tell them i'm not.

i got two rats, they're the sweetest ever.

[let's see... i'm trying to pull tidbits out of my life really, really quickly].

going to new york and massachusetts in late august/early september, i may or may not come back.

i'm in love with everything again, and i smoke waaay too many cigarettes.

had a random night last night, met some guy in an apartment complex. he had a purple mohawk and we shroomed at one, two, three, four in the morning until we were next to passed out in his bed. i kept forgetting he was there. we giggled for a long time.

ahh that's all for now, i'll try harder to update.

xoxostephyyyyyy

chloroform_love @ 2004-05-11T10:36:00

2004-05-11T17:44:49Z

werk sux

who wants to drink

chloroform_love @ 2004-04-24T17:44:00

2004-04-25T00:49:41Z

COACHELLA
NEXT WEEKEND
THE CURE
ATMOSPHERE
SAGE FRANCIS
STEPHY
ALCOHOL, LOTS OF IT

hotel rooms and drunken forwardness; lack of sleep hours from home
nothing to lose but awkward firsts

chloroform_love @ 2003-10-17T01:22:00

2003-10-17T08:23:04Z

stephy hooligan: just, you know,
stephy hooligan: kickin it with some friends
stephy hooligan: and then it's like
stephy hooligan: escalating into all this he-said-she-said bullshit
stephy hooligan: and i'm like uh, i'm actually gonna go drink some more
stephy hooligan: since this spot is blown up thanks guys.

vodka. tequila. beer.

it's just that hollow feeling. otherwise i'm fine.